Three words, High School Reunion. My twentieth. I just got a "Friend Request" from our High School historian on Facebook today and I knew just why. I also got a message from her (surprise) and it was an announcement for...the reunion of course! I didn't go to my 10th and I had no desire to but for some reason I find myself wanting to go to this one. I haven't decided why I want to go. The reason I skipped my 10th had nothing to do with my appearance, I wasn't terribly overweight 10 years ago. I didn't want to go because I didn't like high school and I had no desire to revisit it. So I don't know why I want to go to this one. I think it's for the people. I think after 20 years I would like to see my friends again. Although, I don't need to "catch up" with any of them. I know quite a lot about their lives through Facebook! But it would be nice to hug them and have a bite to eat together. However, like probably at least 75% of the women I graduated with, I want to lose some weight before I even consider going!
And I don't care if I don't look like a runway model as I walk through the doors to the reunion, I'm a mother of 3 for crying out loud and my name ain't Heidi but........I don't want to look like a beached whale either. I want to look how they all thought I might look. I was 10-15 pounds overweight in High School, I don't think anyone would be surprised if I was 20-30 pounds overweight now but 100 pounds??? Yeah, I think that would be noticeable. . I just don't want anyone at the reunion to whisper to someone, "Can you believe how fat Abby got?"
So, this could be a good thing. A High School Reunion in my future could get me through some of the days where I just want to throw in the towel. An upcoming event like this could inspire me to keep going past the 220lb mark (in the past I've always had trouble getting down under 220 for some reason I always quit diets at this weight!). It could be helpful to have this pressure on me to lose weight. It's a gentle pressure. I'm not desperate to go to the reunion so if I feel comfortable with my weight, I won't go.
I guess we'll see.....
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